About a year ago, I stopped writing my blog and newsletter. Many would call the state I was in a “funk”.   The “recession” and its affect on my life had much to do with it but not all.  Today, I know this malaise was a necessary period for me to walk through.  My life journey of self discovery and development has taught me that there are times we will do almost anything not to face our pain and fears.  Of course, this keeps us from growing and accomplishing our true purpose and keeps us emotionally “down” and non-productive.

After 18 years of building a successful business, I was forced to face the fact that I had become emotionally and mentally “burned out”.  On top of it, I lived in a state that was hit very hard economically and all I was hearing was, “how bad things are”.  Unaware of how much of this I had absorbed, I had started going for the quick fixes instead of looking at the truth of my situation and figuring out what I needed to change.  One of the first things I had to do was step back and get honest with myself.   I spent a great deal of time reflecting and meditating and at times feeling the deep sorrow about past mistakes, missed opportunities and what I might have done different. During this process, I began to recognize that I had still not worked out parts of my “lack and limitation” thinking around money and how I lived my life.  I was still holding onto many old, outdated beliefs.

In my blog tomorrow, I will finish telling you how I turned things around and motivated myself to find my way back.  It required letting go of my “pride” , reaching out to others, being honest, and spending a great deal of quiet time working on myself.   It gives me pleasure to help you learn from  my mistakes.

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